I can't believe how time flies...when things are going well and even when you aren't really having much fun! A friend of mine wrote on facebook that she wanted to throw a new year's eve party so that we could say goodbye to 2013 and move on to 2014...she was joking of course but I kind of think I might share the sentiment.
I feel as if I have aged 10 years in the past year...and my skin has really started to reflect that. I am battling a bad case of eczema on both eyelids. A few nights, it has been so bad that I have rubbed my eyes so much they have gotten swollen and painful and I have had a lot of trouble the next morning. The flares are brought on by stress I believe, I had a case of it when finishing grad school and another time when having a very bad bought of insomnia. This is by far the worst case of it. In the past, I have been able to manage it and it eventually went away. I haven't been able to get it under control this time...haven't really been able to manage stress or get much sleep either, though! I have busted out the big guns, an ointment that can only be used about 10 days before intraocular pressure needs to be monitored...not really a good idea to use a steroid based med around the eyes - the skin is so thin there. Ah...I just want the itching to stop and to be able to wear eye makeup again! All those dormant eye shadows...guess Peanut will have lots of makeup to play with.
On top of the eczema, I swear I sprouted a thousand evil wrinkles over night, and I attacked
that with a vengeance. I have to say, Kiehl's makes the most amazing
skincare products...I am now a lifelong devotee. My skin looks a
thousand times better (I think) after a few weeks of use...well, except for my inflamed eyelids. I am obsessed with looking younger. I am not handling aging very well these days.
Dealing with stress...a lifelong battle I guess. I have been described as highstrung many times in the past, and I certainly do not disagree. Yoga, pilates, and kickboxing really helped me with that in the past, as well as walking Hailey and Ginger along Kelly Drive late at night. Those years were some of my most happy days - those years during grad school living in Philly. I want to try to get back to that place again. I want to carve out time for myself - to take care of me. I want to feel better about myself, and in turn, have more energy again (and hopefully feel younger again!). I work hard all day...boy do i work...so when I get home, I am drained but feel so guilty about not spending time with the kids. It is a constant struggle...I feel like I have been losing at this for years.
Work...FDA meeting next week. I am beyond excited! Looking forward to a night alone in the hotel too ;)
Marie
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